By CARLOS PINTO
The project “I don’t trust myself when I’m sleeping” (2018 – 2020) gives continuity to the artist’s enquiries about the places of memory and photography in the construction of identity narratives. The project appears initially as a response to a concrete problem, a crisis of insomnia, which resulted in tiredness, lack of concentration, and galloping anxiety.
Using photography from found family albums, as is already customary in her practice, the artist finds in them the ideal support to reshape the images and characters of her personal history, images that cross the barriers of sleep and wakefulness, experience and memory. In addition to the usual affection with which Carla Cabanas treats the anonymous photographs that she uses in her work, this time she also introduces irony and satire, in the way she stripes and obliterates parts of the original image, populating them with new characters and new senses through the use of the Kintsugi technique.
In a society obsessed with hiding its weaknesses and fixing a perfect image of itself, even if erroneous, the artist directs her focus to the opposite, summoning the difficult moments of her life as inspiration. As if, by applying gold to her torn drawings, she is softening her ghosts, accepting and even valuing their vulnerabilities and wounds.
Top image: CARLA CABANAS, I Don’t Trust Myself When I’m Sleeping II, 2018/2020. Intervention and 22K gold leaf on c-print, 43,5 x 48,5 cm (detail). ENQUIRY